I’ve always wanted to entrepeneur. The seed was planted in middle school when I read a novella that involved an inspiring woman who owned a local and well loved cafe. I wanted to be some kind of shop owner ever since (right now it’s an online shop)! I think, in great part, I wasn’t able to realize or admit that was my dream because I didn’t think it was possible. I didn’t have money to invest, I didn’t have a support system of people who thought I could do it, all I had was this vision that kept creeping back in and getting me excited. I honestly don’t know what makes me happier, the ability to create art for income, or the challenge of building and marketing my own business from virtually nothing!
Regardless, it’s still a risk I’m taking (maybe?), but only because I haven’t ‘made it’ yet. I’ve only been selling since August of 2018 and I didn’t learn how to solder until October of 2018! At the end of the day though, it’s not that much of a risk because, no matter what, I will always have access to half of what this is all about: the joy of creating. That won’t be lost, no matter how much money I make or don’t make. It’s not that hard to shoot for the moon when you know there’s a decent place to land if you only make it halfway 😉
I remember, very vividly, the day that I became the artist I am. It kind of started when I began sewing doll clothes, at about 10 or so. But it really took root when I was around 11 or 12…
I was sitting around, being very bored, as usual, when it occured to me to make something. Make what? I don’t know, think of something! With what materials? I don’t know, think of something! I thought of a recent project in school I did that involved turning a wire coat hanger into a circle. So I did that. What to do with it? Make a windchime! I rummaged through some rarely used junk drawers in the dining room. Old silverware! Perfect! I grabbed them, some string, and a few random junk drawer items and made, what I thought was, the coolest windchime ever to exist on the face of the earth.
I didn’t realize I was an artist then. I was still very identified with being an academic student. But that’s when my inner artist was clearly born. And that’s where most of my creations start… from a restlessness, a boredom, a desire to make something happen, to be inspired!
When it finally came down to it, I realized I had to stop asking for others to validate my dreams and just go for it. Since I’d always been a maker and I’d always wanted my own small business, I just shoved the two together and here we are!
I really wanted to write this just to tell everyone how I named my business, but then all that happened ^^^. Haha. Anyway, the long of the short, I didn’t name myself Jen Amaze, it was actually coded for: Jen (is) a maze. Because I’m so complex and cool like that. I was just bored one day and wanted to make myself a fake name on Facebook, for fun and anonymity, so I settled on Jen Amaze because I like double entendres and it sounded good. But then some friends started calling me by that name and my ego enjoyed the way it sounded 😂
When I was in highschool, some of the more formal teachers would add prefixes to the student’s names, so I had Miss attached to my last name and I liked the way that sounded, too. So I just squished it all together to create an easy social media handle: MsJenAmaze. It wasn’t being used anywhere on the internet, so I was able to use that name everywhere, which is important for branding business. It’s easy, it’s catchy, it’s my name, it was good enough for me. I honestly didn’t even think to put more time into it, the name just made sense. I don’t see myself rebranding in the future, but who knows. I’m not going to pretend that I don’t think having the word ‘amaze’ in my name isn’t a little tacky, but hey, it gives me something to live up to. Be amazing, be, be amazing!